Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Psalm 40: A Testimony of Goodness and Grace

I turned to Psalm 40 this morning and discovered a little note I'd written and forgotten about: "December 28, 2002 - an encouragement and a prayer." I had to stop and think about what was going on in my life three years ago this December. When I realized, and read the psalm, I was amazed as I saw and remembered God's faithfulness in my life.

In December 2002, I had just finished what was, in some ways, my most difficult semester of college--not just academically, but emotionally, physically, relationally, spiritually...I was struggling. Just a couple of weeks before, I had made the difficult decision to walk away from a potential relationship that had seemed, at first, to be God-ordained. I was hurting and confused, questioning my own judgment and wondering what God was up to in my life. I read these words, and they comforted me:

"I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand" (v. 1-2).

These words became my prayer:

"I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart. ...Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me. For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs on my head, and my heart fails within me. Be pleased, O LORD, to save me; O LORD, come quickly to help me" (v. 8,11-13).

Four days after I scribbled that little note in my Bible, Steve called. He asked me to go for a drive and talk--and on that drive, he asked me about the possibility of pursuing something beyond the friendship we'd shared for several years. It was a conversation I'd dreamed of for at least two years, but hardly dared to hope would ever happen.

Today, I join the psalmist in proclaiming:

"Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods. Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare" (v. 4-5).

I had to take a moment to testify to His grace and goodness. He indeed "put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God." I pray that because of my testimony, "Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD" (v. 3).

"I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and salvation. I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly. ...may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation always say, 'The LORD be exalted!'" (v. 10, 16)


Anonymous said...

Excellent post and testimony. Thank you for sharing it.

rebekah said...

very encouraging.
thanks for sharing amy :)